Most of what you are going
to be hearing in the next few weeks will be redundant and cliche. When dealing with loss it's hard to tell someone how to
feel better about it, but you always want to try. So here is my attempt to help.
First off, life doesn't
get easier as you get older, and it's encounters like these that will change you and how you deal with and view things forever.
Don't let anyone tell you how you should or shouldn't feel, but be open to advice at the same time. Not everything
you hear will be what you want or need but it's all part of this perfect plan. Just as death is. Without Death there would
be no room for new life or for the cycle to continue. The winter makes the summer that much brighter.
Death (and the end of
anything in general) has taught me to live in the moment and not to take NOW for granted, ever.
When those deaths or endings unfold I celebrate the one in a million chance that that person, thing, event was a part of my
millisecond of existence. How lucky are we to see the wonders this world has to offer? How lucky were you to be a part of
her life? How lucky is she to be ascending into God's domain and seeing the universe as it should be seen?
Don't try to stop mourning
too early though. Don't let anyone tell you when your pain should end. Experience it fully and understand that that is your
sacrifice to show her the impact she had on you. At the same time, keep in the back of your mind that when she was alive she
wouldnt have wanted to see you sad all the time, and nothing has changed there.
Even though
family is extremely important at times like these. no one will be able to understand how you feel right now better than the
friends she was surrounded by. I've found that I derived the most comfort at sitting with my friends and finding every goofy
memory you can about her and seeing them from this new light of appreciation. You were there at the perfect moment at the
perfect time to have that memory forever.
I want you to know how
much I love you and how much you've been on my mind lately. I really do consider you a sister to me and I hope we can continue
to grow even closer. If you ever need anyone to talk to, just to chat with, to cry or spill your guts to, or anything, you
can call Me or your Brother at anytime day or night and I truly mean that. You are a beautiful person
and you have a beautiful outlook on life. Don't lose it because of the bumps in the road, you only lose your balance for a
second, but I promise you will bounce back stronger than ever!
I love you So Much!
-Laree
